Ring! Ring! Your Future is Calling
I’ve been afraid of the phone before. Refusing to answer it. Putting it on mute so I won’t be tempted. Leaving it at home so that if someone does call, I’ll know in my own sweet time.
My phone will be the means of finding out information that I’m not exactly sure I want right now.
Having left my job, I jumped right in to the job market and interviewed for another job within a week. Just like you need to process and figure out why any relationship didn’t work out, you need to do this about leaving your work behind too. What exactly happened there?
Instead of dwelling about this and finding answers, I’ve been revising my resume, setting up interviews, sending links to work I’ve done, going to offices and sitting across from people at big tables to talk about “what I’ve done up to now.”
It all lead up to a phone interview last Thursday in which I discussed my past, my present, and what I wanted to do in my future. We talked about passion and accessibility and writing copy for a product so that other people would quickly understand and appreciate the product. We discussed five year plans and expectations and hopes.
And then we hung up. I haven’t heard a thing since.
Which in most ways is great. Except for the phone thing. I don’t want to answer it. I don’t want to know either way. I kind of like this unknowing because it still means that all things are possible. I can still work on my personal projects. I can still watch my stories in my slippers while eating bonbons. I can still apply for other jobs. I can imagine that each one of them is The One for Me.
When the phone rings, I don’t know what I’ll say. So maybe it’s best for now that it doesn’t ring. At least for another couple of days.
